“I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness because it shows me the stars”. I went outside last night about 10:00 p.m. barefoot, in shorts and looked up at the sky and saw two brilliant stars twinkling above me. I just stood there on the patio stone gazing up and thanking God that I was there. It was a peace-filled moment…until all three dogs came running at me and barking. But for that one brief moment it was quiet and peaceful and I was just happy.
When Spring temperatures hit Tulsa, I want to be outside working in my yard. I don’t mow, but I love planting and working in the flowerbeds and coming up with new ideas to change-up the yard. The front yard is a work in process, and now my attention is starting the planning phase of the side yard which has no shade and is huge. Roses? Something else rather English garden-esque?
Right now I’m tempted to go home and sit outside and work on the laptop.
Yesterday was one of those beautiful days and I did spend all afternoon getting very dirty which I loved. When I managed to get in the house and clean up I sat back (flopped down) on the den sofa and started watching Apocalypse: World War II. Just saying that Hitler guy was a bad, bad man.
I’m no longer broken and I’m no longer scarred. I’m happy but not content, yet. Things that were important to me three months ago, things I had to prove, just are no longer important to me. So what?
I’m dealing with something in my life that came out of the blue and was stressful….and I suppose still would be stressful if I allowed it. I decided Friday afternoon to just work through it, ask for help when needed, and it will be ok, one way or the other. Man oh Manischewitz, that is completely a 180 from how I would have dealt with it a year and a half ago. Times they are achangin’
It’s close to 4 p.m. and I’m packing up and going home. I have dirt to spread….and a situation to work out in my head.